A Little Changes

Guys, start from today you’ll be realizing some changes in my blog, majoring in future entries. Some of you might ask what kind of entries going to be, well the changes in the entries will no more, it’s not like no more but not more to my emotion or feelings entries.

If you realize, since the first day I started to blog it’s all about my feelings, my activities which I shared with all of you and now I decided to make a little changes in that. I know some of you might be get boring when my blog is purely about my own feelings, it’s pretty annoying when I looked at it haha!

For my previous follower since the first day, you might be realizing that my blog template had changed, new music player at the bottom with variety of songs (come with stop/mute/play/volume control) and my own new signage. As much as I wanted to make this blog to be user friendly for my followers and readers.

The other changes that I’m going to talk about are also something which is to do with entries as well. As I told you buys above I’m trying to cutting those entries which is related to my own feelings, I’m going add up some useful tips, my own opinion in some matters which I think that I need to share with you guys, I’m not going to touch much about politics at here, about currents fashion, current lifestyle and whatever stuff that I think I can share.

Oh yeah, some of you might realize too that my entire picture had been removed due to some own personal reason. I’m trying to run away with my own identity or being such a coward to let others know that who I am. I’m just trying to be take some safety precaution (I’ll let you guys know the reason later).

Here comes the interesting part, as much as I concern about my followers and reader I’ll create a individual facebook page or facebook account and twitter account (under consideration) for you guys to make your life easier to contact with me. I know I’m not an artist but I can say I’m a friendly guy to be friend with everyone (terms & condition apply! – will talk about this in a separate entries).

So as for now I think you guys already had an imagination on how things going to be in my blog after this. All of your comments and feedback are welcome either it’s a happy comment or unsatisfactory comment, all will be taking into account and I’m trying to sort things one by one. I think that’s all for this moment and Happy Monday Blues people!

Until then, so & so

PP

I'm doing just fine ;)

Anyeonghaseyo everyone ;) haha, sorry for being in invisible mood for a period of time. And many thanks to those ask how am I doing and why so silent recently.

I’m sorry guys, just been busy with work and some personal works lately, despite that I’m doing all fine, happy as before J. Don’t worry too much, I won’t commit suicide for someone who betrayed my love, friendship and my sacrifices, anyway let’s don’t talk about that and talk something else which is more interesting. Life must move on people and don’t ever let something block your path to move on further to your future.

I’m much more happier now with my single now to be honest, nothing to worry about, no one to worry about, no reporting and it’s seems like cool to me. Well, I won’t say I’ll never fall in love anymore but just taking a time for myself perhaps. There’s few time I told that I don’t want to fall in the trap anymore but ended with loving someone haha so giving the circumstances, yes I’ll fall in love with the right person when the right time comes and when I feel it’s the time.

For me, I don’t want to rush and I know I’m not young anymore. I’m going to be turn to 24^th coming this October so as much as I concern about the time and at the same time I do concern about my happiness too, I promise to myself to not myself anymore and to allow myself to have some time to relax.

I don’t know what made to think or act this way but I would rather say it is how I am supposed to be; recently I came to realize I’m closer to god and shining with his blessing. Started to prioritize my parents and family, spend time with them and I do realize that happiness is the only that we cannot buy in the world and every problem has a solution, so what for stress myself over the limit and torture myself when I know there’s solution for it.

Despite all of it, I trust in god more than before. Even though I can see him (god) in real life but he is always in my heart and blessing me all the time. For me, god is always there for me during my happy and sad time or even problem time, he always show me the right way to go through it. You might ask me how I know? I can’t answer that with a precise answer but I know because I can feel it the way he leads me in my life, whenever he think that what I want is not the right thing for me, he’ll do something to get my mind away.

All I can say now is I’m happy with my life now and yes there are few guys who like me but all I can say to them is I’m only able to be in friends zone for now, no more than that and as much I say that I do have feelings for this one guy haha, I’m such a bitch. I don’t want to deny my own feelings but at the same time I hold with my promise. Let me tell you guys more about this guy yar!

Until then, so & so

PP

Don't try to be something that you're not! Haha

Until then, so & so

PP

The tales of Waria....

I’m speechless when I know there’s no endless route for this forbidden love!

Until then, so & so

PP

Happy Birthday Papa

Later at year 1936, 26 Dec a baby boy was born at China. He was grown up with his family in poor condition where no proper food to eat, no proper place to sleep yet he survived with his family. Working at a quarry at the age 10 and wearing a worn out shoes, escaped to Malaysia at the age of 12 with his family and amazingly survived at here even it was war time.

Later, married a Chinese woman and an Indian woman gifted with 6 kids all together. Living a happy life after with his family and today 26^th of December 2012 was his 76 birthday, still healthy and living a happy with his wife, son’s and daughter’s.

Yes, he was my father, a lovable father ever in my life. A kind man, who loves his kids the most, never beat his kids ever no matter how big the trouble is. I can remember few incidents of mine and it’s a funny thing, really fine. Well, I was the youngest in my family so I’m a mama son but at the same time papa love me too.

When I was about 7 years old, primary school to be precise. I hate school especially mandarin that point of time, I just hate it plus with those Chinese kids owh god tell me about it! I was like an experiment object for them, like why my skins are not fair like them and I’m always wondering what kind stupid question is that! Anyway, so I hate school and you want to know what I’d to go to school? I’ll never do a single homework, imagine guys I felt like I’m acting in a kungfu movie whenever I writing mandarin words, so difficult! So what I’ll do is always hide the books in my father car and when almost reach the school I’ll be like *oh papa, I forgot my homework book at home* and he drive me all the way back home and search the book. I took the chance and tell my papa *papa, I couldn’t found the book and I don’t want to go to school* but the book is actually in his car! But he still forces me to attend the school haha but never bear me, just angry!

Until one day, he found out my book in his car when he send for car wash (damn you cleaner)! I was like shit, I’m going to die haha and start the day after he’ll ride me to school with motorbike and he even ask me : -

Papa      : haaa where you going to hide the book this time?

Me         : erkkkkk

But still I hide my book inside my bag and say my book is missing and it’s only up to standard 3 and after that I start to catch up with my study and till today never stop to learn and sometime my dad tell me : -

Papa      : Those days, I ask you study and you’ll be like making all kind of drama but now even I ask

   you to stop study and you’ll be giving me that evil look haha

Not only that, there’s one time he slap just to wake me up from the so call charm or some kind spirit in my body but only I know it’s all drama haha! Back in 2008 I guess, I joined a budha society where their prayer is entirely different from the ordinary type but definitely not AJARAN SESAT ok haha! So the prayer required me to attend on certain day on night and to attend classes at KL so papa didn’t like it and didn’t allow me to attend. I don’t know why the hell I’m being so stupid that time and acting like some sort of spirit in my body just to threaten him to allow me to attend the budha prayers and classes. *pap* the first slap ever from my papa, will never forget about that. Funny-funny things happen with my papa, I just simply love him even though he didn’t being fair to me sometime.

I love you papa

Happy 76^th Birthday

Many More returns of the day

May God Bless You Always

May God Shine His blessing on you always

Until then, so & so

PP

Merry Christmas :)

Merry Christmas to all my friends who celebrating it with families. May Jesus bless you always.

Until then, so & so

PP

It's time for a break .....

Guys, things seems not so well between me and J. He seems reluctant to take any decision but neither of us rushing for it at this moment. It just me I guess, sometime I just don’t understand what he really want in his life. J is a good guy no doubt on that but I can really feel he is not interested in me tho, you can feel it if someone like you or otherwise. Sometime we even can feel the spark when we with the love one, but it don’t seem that J feel the sparks on me. Maybe I’m wrong and maybe I’m right, but giving the current circumstances I made a decision not him because I know whenever I ask him to make a decision on this, he’ll slowly avoid it.

I decided to take a break for my relationship. Most of you wonders didn’t me and J already declared to each other? No, no guys, it’s been a year, we yet to declare to each other. J is a kind of person who seems doesn’t like to take responsibilities in his life or there could other reason, I don’t know. I’m done with this guys, I’m tired! Tired in the sense of sacrificing, tired of love a person who doesn’t love me, tired of hoping for something which is not for me!

It’s been a year guys, only I’m the one who strain my brain, energy to think what else I should do to make him happy but he seems doesn’t. All he can do is making fun of me and yes it could take years and it’s better to take years for understand each other and accept the love. It’s the other way round in our case, I’m the only one who keeps trying to understand him but he can just relax, go out and have fun with his friend. I mean, I don’t stop him from doing all that and he got his personal life and need entertainment too but can’t he at least spend 5 minutes a day to think about us? I don’t want to argue about this with him anymore as it seems worthless to talk about this with someone who doesn’t love me.

Since both of us yet to declare, it makes things easier for me to make the decision and he seems normal, no argument no objection but he accept my decision means he waited me to do it. Nice plan! No more reporting, no more worrying, less text seems like good way to go. I want to take some time to relax, for myself and it’s time for me to concentrate for my future too especially in work. I saw a better option for my life is there, just in front of me so I need to work hard to grab it and I’ll.

For now, my mind is so empty and peaceful without any worries for love matter, the only thing I concern the most is my life (I’ll talk about this in the next entry). So, it’s time for a break on relationship, love and it’s time for me to move on all alone. I’m happy, no stress! See you guys soon and take care.

Until then, so & so

PP