Saturday, March 17, 2012

It's had been paid at last...

Finally, all my hard work at office throughout the last year it's going to be paid by end this month with the 50% of increment, first in the history of my company for over 15 years and highest in my department while those engineers and geologist get only average 9%. I don't mean to compare with others but I should really proud of myself on my achievement.

I'm not sure how good I am in my work but my boss know me well. It was a fine sunny day on Thursday and I was doing my work, setting up my new department. Puan Azita, out company HR payroll officer, the one that "so so" close with me at office buzz me in skype and told me that I got 50% increment this year for my last year performance. I don't believe at all that point of time until I see the spreadsheet, add to this, this kind of information is entire P&C, yet she told me because she happy for me.

Working life during the year of 2011 indeed a tough year ever which so much of challenges, I'd go through one by one. Coming early at 6am to work and leave office at 9pm/10pm, sometime even leave office at 1am! Crazy right? Haha but I enjoyed it so much even I'm busy but I like the work load which kept me busy and tired, learned so much including engineering stuff, I just simply like to learn new things!

All this credit will definitely go to my boss David who already resigned from my company early February. A big lost for me, he's good friend and a good boss too. Whatever it is, I'm happy, really happy!

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Not to hope too much....

I don't know where to start but let's begin with my feelings. I just simply feel happy for those people happy with their boyfriend and all I can say for those still single is don't worry people, the right time is yet to reach you but once reach you'll then realize how valuable your waiting is! Serious, this is what I'm feeling now! Is not that I'm becoming the old me, the emo one but I just simply turned to be like this.

All of you know how much I'd trusted Alif in my life, I never trusted like that in my life before yet I trusted him. At last, he broke the trust which he gained for him from me. After the break, I just can't trust anyone in my life. I seriously don't feel anything in my heart, even I saw a guy passing me I just being like a puppet. Unlike my housemate makes some kind of comments about those guys which attract his attention.

I'm too much tired of taking care of my own feelings, I feel numb! Sometimes I do hope that I wanted to hug and lay my head on their shoulder, cry and letting go everything in my heart but I don't is either I'm ego or finding a right one to share, at last I tend to keep it with me without sharing anything. I started to ignore peoples, less smiling at people, less talk to people, less spend time with people and less caring about people. I become more silent and care my own business, some of you may found I didn't reply comment or put my views at your blog, I'm just too tired of taking care others business. It's your life, you have the rights to choose what is right and what is wrong, you should know what you're doing so who am I to stop or comment? So I decided to become a silent reader instead and will be comment those I think nothing to do with your life.

Talking about the title, is about a guy name J.E.F. (find out the real name if you're clever enough). Trying his level best to know me more, always like to throw me a question and like to irritate me yet I'm happy because he like make me laugh. Good looking, yes! Even he is showing his interest on me and trying to convince to take it slowly but I didn't hope anything from anyone. I'm tired of hoping for something which I'll never get! So I told him not to hope too much from me, I'm enough with this. Well, if he really like and love me, only me, he'll get me!

Friday, March 2, 2012

Happy for my housemate :)

I though wanted to update the blog tomorrow which is Saturday because I'll free doing nothing other than study but at last I decided to update it right away even though I've like tonnes of office which need my attention!

I guess it's the right time for me to spend some time talking about my housemate Abang Fakhrul, age 37 and working at a well known hotel in KL. We become friends when I moved in to his house at Cheras couple of month ago. I've no problem living with him because we both are in the same boat after all so not to worry too much about feelings.

He is now officially in a relationship with a police officer who currently working penang. they both seems happy together, after a month of dating, finally they declared! Don't ask me who is top and bottom, that's not my business to know. His bf age is 23 which is same age with me, yet, I've no problem with it because love is blind indeed. sometime we just can see through in this kind incident. Age is just a number and it doesn't going to effect anything in your life, especially in our love life. They'd exchanges rings and chain as a love sign and the sweetest part was his bf bought a phone for him, I mean it's fine for you to express your love in anyway as long as you do it with your honest heart :)

I'm happy for them, really! I'm just enjoying seeing everyone around me enjoying their life with the love and it doesn't mean that I'm alone without anyone in my life ok. I am enjoying watching you guys growing everyday in creating relationship but remember to not hurt anyone. If you can't promise anything then don't promise, try to explain so that the other side can accept the fact of your decision.

Anyway, to not run out from the entry, I would like to congratulate my housemate and his bf. Happy love life forever new couples!!!