I'm doing just fine ;)

Anyeonghaseyo everyone ;) haha, sorry for being in invisible mood for a period of time. And many thanks to those ask how am I doing and why so silent recently.

I’m sorry guys, just been busy with work and some personal works lately, despite that I’m doing all fine, happy as before J. Don’t worry too much, I won’t commit suicide for someone who betrayed my love, friendship and my sacrifices, anyway let’s don’t talk about that and talk something else which is more interesting. Life must move on people and don’t ever let something block your path to move on further to your future.

I’m much more happier now with my single now to be honest, nothing to worry about, no one to worry about, no reporting and it’s seems like cool to me. Well, I won’t say I’ll never fall in love anymore but just taking a time for myself perhaps. There’s few time I told that I don’t want to fall in the trap anymore but ended with loving someone haha so giving the circumstances, yes I’ll fall in love with the right person when the right time comes and when I feel it’s the time.

For me, I don’t want to rush and I know I’m not young anymore. I’m going to be turn to 24^th coming this October so as much as I concern about the time and at the same time I do concern about my happiness too, I promise to myself to not myself anymore and to allow myself to have some time to relax.

I don’t know what made to think or act this way but I would rather say it is how I am supposed to be; recently I came to realize I’m closer to god and shining with his blessing. Started to prioritize my parents and family, spend time with them and I do realize that happiness is the only that we cannot buy in the world and every problem has a solution, so what for stress myself over the limit and torture myself when I know there’s solution for it.

Despite all of it, I trust in god more than before. Even though I can see him (god) in real life but he is always in my heart and blessing me all the time. For me, god is always there for me during my happy and sad time or even problem time, he always show me the right way to go through it. You might ask me how I know? I can’t answer that with a precise answer but I know because I can feel it the way he leads me in my life, whenever he think that what I want is not the right thing for me, he’ll do something to get my mind away.

All I can say now is I’m happy with my life now and yes there are few guys who like me but all I can say to them is I’m only able to be in friends zone for now, no more than that and as much I say that I do have feelings for this one guy haha, I’m such a bitch. I don’t want to deny my own feelings but at the same time I hold with my promise. Let me tell you guys more about this guy yar!

Until then, so & so

PP

Don't try to be something that you're not! Haha

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PP

The tales of Waria....

I’m speechless when I know there’s no endless route for this forbidden love!

Until then, so & so

PP

Happy Birthday Papa

Later at year 1936, 26 Dec a baby boy was born at China. He was grown up with his family in poor condition where no proper food to eat, no proper place to sleep yet he survived with his family. Working at a quarry at the age 10 and wearing a worn out shoes, escaped to Malaysia at the age of 12 with his family and amazingly survived at here even it was war time.

Later, married a Chinese woman and an Indian woman gifted with 6 kids all together. Living a happy life after with his family and today 26^th of December 2012 was his 76 birthday, still healthy and living a happy with his wife, son’s and daughter’s.

Yes, he was my father, a lovable father ever in my life. A kind man, who loves his kids the most, never beat his kids ever no matter how big the trouble is. I can remember few incidents of mine and it’s a funny thing, really fine. Well, I was the youngest in my family so I’m a mama son but at the same time papa love me too.

When I was about 7 years old, primary school to be precise. I hate school especially mandarin that point of time, I just hate it plus with those Chinese kids owh god tell me about it! I was like an experiment object for them, like why my skins are not fair like them and I’m always wondering what kind stupid question is that! Anyway, so I hate school and you want to know what I’d to go to school? I’ll never do a single homework, imagine guys I felt like I’m acting in a kungfu movie whenever I writing mandarin words, so difficult! So what I’ll do is always hide the books in my father car and when almost reach the school I’ll be like *oh papa, I forgot my homework book at home* and he drive me all the way back home and search the book. I took the chance and tell my papa *papa, I couldn’t found the book and I don’t want to go to school* but the book is actually in his car! But he still forces me to attend the school haha but never bear me, just angry!

Until one day, he found out my book in his car when he send for car wash (damn you cleaner)! I was like shit, I’m going to die haha and start the day after he’ll ride me to school with motorbike and he even ask me : -

Papa      : haaa where you going to hide the book this time?

Me         : erkkkkk

But still I hide my book inside my bag and say my book is missing and it’s only up to standard 3 and after that I start to catch up with my study and till today never stop to learn and sometime my dad tell me : -

Papa      : Those days, I ask you study and you’ll be like making all kind of drama but now even I ask

   you to stop study and you’ll be giving me that evil look haha

Not only that, there’s one time he slap just to wake me up from the so call charm or some kind spirit in my body but only I know it’s all drama haha! Back in 2008 I guess, I joined a budha society where their prayer is entirely different from the ordinary type but definitely not AJARAN SESAT ok haha! So the prayer required me to attend on certain day on night and to attend classes at KL so papa didn’t like it and didn’t allow me to attend. I don’t know why the hell I’m being so stupid that time and acting like some sort of spirit in my body just to threaten him to allow me to attend the budha prayers and classes. *pap* the first slap ever from my papa, will never forget about that. Funny-funny things happen with my papa, I just simply love him even though he didn’t being fair to me sometime.

I love you papa

Happy 76^th Birthday

Many More returns of the day

May God Bless You Always

May God Shine His blessing on you always

Until then, so & so

PP

Merry Christmas :)

Merry Christmas to all my friends who celebrating it with families. May Jesus bless you always.

Until then, so & so

PP

It's time for a break .....

Guys, things seems not so well between me and J. He seems reluctant to take any decision but neither of us rushing for it at this moment. It just me I guess, sometime I just don’t understand what he really want in his life. J is a good guy no doubt on that but I can really feel he is not interested in me tho, you can feel it if someone like you or otherwise. Sometime we even can feel the spark when we with the love one, but it don’t seem that J feel the sparks on me. Maybe I’m wrong and maybe I’m right, but giving the current circumstances I made a decision not him because I know whenever I ask him to make a decision on this, he’ll slowly avoid it.

I decided to take a break for my relationship. Most of you wonders didn’t me and J already declared to each other? No, no guys, it’s been a year, we yet to declare to each other. J is a kind of person who seems doesn’t like to take responsibilities in his life or there could other reason, I don’t know. I’m done with this guys, I’m tired! Tired in the sense of sacrificing, tired of love a person who doesn’t love me, tired of hoping for something which is not for me!

It’s been a year guys, only I’m the one who strain my brain, energy to think what else I should do to make him happy but he seems doesn’t. All he can do is making fun of me and yes it could take years and it’s better to take years for understand each other and accept the love. It’s the other way round in our case, I’m the only one who keeps trying to understand him but he can just relax, go out and have fun with his friend. I mean, I don’t stop him from doing all that and he got his personal life and need entertainment too but can’t he at least spend 5 minutes a day to think about us? I don’t want to argue about this with him anymore as it seems worthless to talk about this with someone who doesn’t love me.

Since both of us yet to declare, it makes things easier for me to make the decision and he seems normal, no argument no objection but he accept my decision means he waited me to do it. Nice plan! No more reporting, no more worrying, less text seems like good way to go. I want to take some time to relax, for myself and it’s time for me to concentrate for my future too especially in work. I saw a better option for my life is there, just in front of me so I need to work hard to grab it and I’ll.

For now, my mind is so empty and peaceful without any worries for love matter, the only thing I concern the most is my life (I’ll talk about this in the next entry). So, it’s time for a break on relationship, love and it’s time for me to move on all alone. I’m happy, no stress! See you guys soon and take care.

Until then, so & so

PP

It's never been easy...

When talk about love, it’s never been easy as we thought, well it’s that easy as for me. Some say love is fun, some say love is pain, some say love is miserable (most of the time) and some even ask what is love? Oh my god, I’m going to slap any bastard or bitches ask me this kind of question. God damn it, are you stupid or you want to make me look stupid! Haha, yeah I know I’m using some harsh or immoral words, well it’s boring dude keep posting like being emotional so I decided to try a new methods for all the upcoming entries, how about that?

Ok, let’s talk about love today. Yes, love is fun and you even feel like you’re in the heaven but let me tell you this, as much as you feel like heaven and the next second you can feel like hell. Trust me, it’s never been that easy moreover in PLU life haha, what can I tell you. But again, it’s undeniable there’s couple living with their love life forever and at the same, there is and there are people who never satisfied with their love, sort of looking for a better one. You stupid, that’s not looking for a better person but you looking for a better ……… (Fill the gap by yourself)!

Owh for god sake. If you already happy with the current one, what is wrong with you to go and look for someone else? You say you love him and cannot live without yet you go and looking for other, how is this work? Can someone explain to me please?  Love required sacrifices people, without doing anything you can’t just expect you boyfriend to be nice to you all the time. The kind of sacrifices that I’m talking is be patient, always text you lover, call your lover even though only you’re the one who always call him/her but don’t be stingy lah.

Haaa ni satu lagi (there you go, started to mencarut in BM welcome me!), kalau keluar pi shopping tu share2 lah bayar. Jangan dok harap orang tu jew bayar macam lunch you bayar lepas tu movie dier plak yang bayar itu kalau dier ada duit lah or korang ada duit kalau takder tu, haa dok diam2 dalam umah buat baby. Perngorbanan tu penting beb, jangan nak dok piker malam ni nak buat style aper erk. Luangkan masa dengan si dia, borak lah tentang korang tapi kan bende yang paling irritating adalah korang jangan lah asyik tanya si dia *by, you cinta I tak*! Sekali tu at least boleh accept lagi, ni tak dok tanya sepuluh kali…kalau aku lah kan, cement ar your face!

Ok, if you really love a person you must learn to endure all kind of pain, must be patient and trust. It’s very important and there are times where you’ll feel like breaking up the relationship because the other party didn’t pay much attention on you but you must always understand and think positively. The other party might busy with work or some other business but unless you’re really sure about that he/she hooking with someone else than with all pleasure you can decide to pour some acid on his/her face!

PS: Sorry for the carut mencarut in BM part but if most of you prefer in BM then I’ll change it to BM for future entries.

Until then, so & so

PP