Brain ask....Heart answer....!

Today morning while listening music and doing my work at office, my brain started to think and throw me a question all of sudden.

Brain: Why you want to stick with one while out there have so many like you and want you in their life?

Within a second my heart answer the brain question

Heart: Out there may have thousands people who like and wish to have you in their life but only one person who love you, Alif!

I started to smile all alone my office room without a reason thinking about him, only him in my mind and heart.

HIV test....!

Me: Awk, sejak kebelakangan ni saya asyik rasa letih lah wak :(

Alif: Knp? Awk tak tak cukup rehat tu :)

Me: Entahlah wak, saya tadi ada baca tanda2 HIV wak

Alif: Knp tiba2 nak baca benda macam tu?

Me: Xderlah wak, entah saya tiba2 terbaca hehe

Alif: So, apa yang dier tulis dalam tu?

Me: Dier tulis kalau ada HIV akan rasa letih, berat badan akan menurun, sering sakit kepala,
xder selere nak makan tapi saya ok jew nak waktu makan heheheh

Alif: Awk, Awk rasa letih sebab awk tak cukup rehat, berat badan awk xpernah turun lah wak asyik 50kg jew dari dulu sampai skrg hehehe awk sakit kepala sebab awk ada migrain. Pasal makan tu awk ada jew kot selere nak makan hahahaha

Me: Awk jahat heheheh awk, saya skrg ke klinik ambik ubat demam. Leh tak kalau nak buat HIV test sekali just untuk precaution wak..

Alif: Hmmm buat jewlah, alang2 dah pergi tu

Me: Baik tuan!

Yes, I'd the HIV test. It was so damn scary waiting for the result to come out. I did the test on monday and the result expected to come on friday!

Me: Awk, saya dah buat test. Result akan kuar jumaat nanti. Habis darah saya wak :(

Alif: Hmmm ok lah tu. Knp plak darah habis?

Me: Yerlah wak, dahlah sikit jew darah itupun doktor dah curi hehehe

Alif: Awk ni hahahaha

Me: Wak, saya takutlah wak..takut result tu nanti :(

Alif: Eh awk ni...xder apa lah. Kita fikir positive k :)

Me: Ok wak thanks :)

Day by day, on wednesday evening at about 6pm doctor text me regarding the result.

Doc: Pat, your result is out.

Me: Hmmm let's hear it!

Doc: Hahaha good news, you free from HIV test hahahaa

Me: Hahahah OMG! Thank you so much doctor hehe will visit you tomorrow

Doc: Sure, will looking forward to meet you as well :)
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Me: Awk...result dah kuar...yeayyyyyy saya free dari HIV hahaha

Alif: Syukur allahmdullilah (sorry if the spelling is wrong)

Me: hahahah wak...I miss you hehe

Alif: Miss u 2

Yes guys, I'd HIV test which is good to know my own health condition. Alif also want to do the test as well. Is not about you had sex with who but it about your health to know the status.

I did mine and when is your turn?

Do you trust him....???

Well, not one but more ask me this question over and over! Do you trust whatever Alif said to you? What would my answer will be other than 'yes, of course I trust him'! Yes, I'd said before trust no one in your life except yourself but when it comes to a relationship you must trust partner as how you trust yourself.

Yes, it's risky to trust a person but when it's about relationship, is nothing without trust! Me and Alif is living really far away, not even meeting every week like before but I trust him and he trust me. Love is all about trust each other! What ever me and Alif doing, we always will inform each other no matter important or not. Sometime, yes he'd stopping me from doing something and I never consider that as a he taking control over me but rather think positive as he taking care of me, who know better what's good and bad.

We all are learning everyday and I always learn new things and behavior from Alif indirectly. I know about Alif, know better than others. That is why when people say something like want to tackle him, I'll always say go ahead because I know who is Alif and how will he react :)

Trust me, love will never workout without trust! If you really love a person then you've to trust your lover. As for me, I always trust Alif and he'll never lie to me. Even if there is, I'm sure he have reasonable reason for it :)

I love you wak heheh :p

Be prepared....!

It's been a while from the earlier post and my sincerely apology for being late. As can be predicted from the title, yes, I'm prepared myself to face the future consequences with Alif. Some of you might be thinking what the hell I'm talking about!

As all of you aware, I'm now officially with Alif I mean he already proposed indirectly couples of week ago. What I meant here is, it's about our future after this. I know one day Alif will married with someone and I've to prepare mentally and physically to accept the reality. I know is easy to say and hard to do but I've no other choice other than taking this risk.

Well, life is all about taking risk. We all taking bunch of risk without we knowing but I know and realized about it. No matter what, my life is just full rick everyday. I know gay relationship won't last forever but I really solute those really keep it till end of their life. I wish my relationship will be till end of my life with Alif but I know his planning, he might get married at the age of 28.

I know, one day I'll facing a situation where like the whole world gone black but I should keep in mind the promises that I'd made for him. Yes, it sounds crazy yet I'm happy to be beside him but after he get a new life with his future wife! I mean I'm happy if he's happy, that's enough for me.

I'd prepared myself how am I going to live without him and I'm sure I can, nothing is impossible for me at all and Alif know me well. Even I prepared but I do sometime seems worry, that's normal anyway because I'm human as well, right? The point here is, I'm really happy with him, only with him :)

A card with thousands of love...

Hey gays opps guys hahax, Alif gave me a birthday card at the same day when he gave me big boy. A card indeed full of meaning, even there's don't have a single words of love but I can feel it in my heart that he already started to love because I feel it from the way he talk and from the way he look at me.

Anyway, since the I was put everything on the previous blog about events so nothing much to talk now but he'd warned me to only open after I reach Pahang. Well, you know me right so I was trying to open the cover under the table while eating pizza and he can spot all of my movement, damn! Where did he learn that from...? At last, Ionly managed to open and read it in the bas when I back to Pahang and I was smiling all the way back from KL hahax, it was so lovely.

Let's have a look at it....!

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ps: Kindly email me at cheah_cw@hotmail.com to get the password after click the adds yeah. Korang leh tak jangan kedekut sangat...by clicking the adds kan...harta korang takkan hilang tau hahaha....

Happiest day ever in my life

Hey everyone, I don't know how to describe my feelings right now since yesterday but what I can tell now is I'm extremely happy. Yes, I'm extremely happy! Want to know why? After so long, almost 1 years waiting for Alif is really worth at the end, worth to wait for such a long period :)

Yesterday, as we'd planned earlier to watch Johny English Reborn even it's a bit old movie but worth to watch to release tension. Even thought the movie is at 4pm but I already at KLCC since I wanted to print some of the picture of me and Alif for frame it, once done when to Kinokuniya to get some book. Yes of course I bought some book for RM120++ and reading "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham while waiting for Alif, finally I finish reading the book.

Once Alif reached we straight went to bought some drinks and popcorn, by that time I saw him carrying something inside and I started to ask him:

Me: Wak, aper tu wak?

Alif: Barang saya...

Me: Barang awk? Aper tu wak?

Alif: Dah orang kata barang saya....!

I stop asking since after he said such and not to ask more. It's time to watch movie but I felt like wanted to pee, what else other than go to toilet right. Once after I came back and sat down, all of sudden Alif handed over something to me and I was so shock...! Guess what? It's a teddy bear for my late birthday gift, OMG!!! Everyone is the theatre watching me with the teddy bear hahax, I just didn't aspect it from him at all. I was like flying on the sky, just imagine you get something from someone you love the most hahahaha I felt like I'm going crazy. I was hugged the bear from the start of the movie till the end, to be honest I didn't watch the movie at all but looking at the bear and Alif hahaha.

Right after the movie we went to Pizza, oh my guchie! I was carrying the bear all along from KLCC to my room Alif but KL people are really WTF man like they never saw a man walking with teddy bear hahax even I was a bit shy hehe. Nevermind, who care right!

After we reach home, we took shower, talk to abang Fakhrul and went to sleep. Believe me or not, that was the night which make me feel like I'm the happiest person in the world man. That was the night he make so much of joke with big boy and me. Oh yeah, the bear was given a name by me "Big Boy" hahax, lovely right! All of sudden I was get stunned, totally stunned!

Alif: Ini anak kita lepas kita kahwin satu tahun..

Me: totally blurr...! But I was feel like jumping down from 14th floor of my apartment, that much of happy

Hahaha I've no words to describe and talk that time but yet enjoying his joke the whole night by holding his hand and sleeping on his chest. A lovely day and the happiest day ever in my life which I'll never ever will delete from my memory...

Now, let's have a look on some of the picture with Big boy together with his Papa and Mama hahax...

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ps: Kindly email me at cheah_cw@hotmail.com to get the password after click the adds yeah. Korang leh tak jangan kedekut sangat...by clicking the adds kan...harta korang takkan hilang tau hahaha....

Bulan special untuk kena marah....! Part 2

Haaa korang hambek part 2 ni...yang ni plak berlaku baru khamis lepas. Kan baru lepas deepali so aku makanlah maruku yang mama buat, lepas makan ya tuhanku muka aku dah start ada jerawat dan gatal (resdung) sebab dah lama tak buat rewatan resdung. Lagi pun resdung aku xlah teruk sangat so aku call lah Alif petang tu (aku mesti kena bagitau apa sajew xkira lah baik atau buruk mesti dier orang yang pertama yang aku gitau):

Saya: Awk, muka saya dah rasa gatal dan ada jerawat lik....

Alif: Eh kenapa leh jadi macam tu?

Saya: Entahlah wak, mungkin sebab saya makan maruku kot

Alif: Awk dah buat rawatan resdung?

Saya: Lum lagi wak...xder masa nak buat busy sangat ngan kerja

Alif: Lah kenapa? Awk ada jew masa bawak kakak Elvina gi buat kenapa awk tak buat?

Saya: Hehehe nanti lah saya buat kat KL erk

Alif: Kenapa nak buat kat KL? Awk dah beli tiket bas? Buat jew kat Lipis, KL mahal

Saya: A'ah wak dah beli bas kul 8am

Alif: Bila awk beli?

Saya: Hari tu masa hari deepavali hehe

Alif: Gatal...!

Saya: Awk, sampai hati awk cakap saya gatal...

Alif: Yalah, kenapa awk nak datang KL awal sangat? Tiket tu xleh tukar? Buat kat lipis jew rawatan resdung tu...

Saya: Baik tuan, saya buat kat Lipis erk

Alif: Hmm ok. Awk ni malas, dah baik sikit terus stop makan ubat dan cuci muka ikut time. Saya kenal sangat awk ni...pantang muka tu licin sikit terus stop semua....

Saya; Bwekkkkk :p

Hahaha macam ni lah kekdahnya, cedih aku asyik kena tegur kat alif bulan ni hahah tapi saya suka at least entah saya macam happy hehe. Sejak kebelakangan ini Alif dah start banyak tanya soalan macam

1. Pergi dengan sapa?

2. Pergi dengan apa?

3. Nak balik kul berapa?

4. Kenapa nak pergi waktu ni (kalau malam)

5. Nak buat apa pergi sana?

Banyak lagi lah, malas aku nak cite semua sebab ada certain tu aku nak simpan sebagai kenangan dalam hati saya hehehe. Hati saya 63GB macam Ipad tau hehe. I feel like he started to give somekind of hint to me and I know deep inside his heart he like me but he just don't want to show it. Hahax......